Remember that September night in 2006?
You got us tickets to a rock concert. We sat right up in the upper box, away from the crowd. We didn’t really enjoy the concert as much as we enjoyed each other’s company. So, halfway through the concert we thought we should go some place quieter and talk instead.
We took a cab. We heard the first Christmas carol of the year blasting from the cab’s radio. It was beginning to feel a lot like Christmas, alright.
And then we found ourselves at Starbucks, Pearl Drive, a few blocks away from my apartment.
You were leaving the next day. We didn’t have to say it out loud, but we both knew that we didn’t want the night to end. We were just friends back then, but I remember seeing you the way I never saw you before. 
When you’re friends with someone since you were in high school, and he happened to live halfway across the world, it’s easy to throw that person into the friend’s zone. But that night.. something was different. We felt older, and more matured, and more sure of what we wanted and who we were.
That night, everything had changed.
* * *
The other day I went past that Starbucks and memories came rushing back. You know how Starbucks has started rebranding and renovating their branches? This Starbucks in Pearl Drive has not been renovated yet. It’s still the same old coffee shop, with the same old wooden chairs we sat on back in 2006. For a moment there it felt like I went back through time, 7 years earlier, and once again I was amazed at how powerful and reckless young love can be.
I snapped a photo, and thought it would make you smile when I showed it to you. It inspired me to write you a love letter.
I walked away from Starbucks, our Starbucks, quietly singing our song as I went.

Time wasn’t on my side again And I have to say good bye to youAnd all the things that we’ve been throughCoz I would have to go againTo find a way for time to pass me byEven though we know it’s time for us to move on.

I was surprised I still knew every line by heart. I was surprised at how I still somewhat felt a tinge of pain in my heart just thinking about that night. 
We just found each other again, but we had to let go all at the same time. It was cruel, and bittersweet, and it was all for our good.

Time stood still the time I walked you homeIt was just you and I alone beneath the deep blue skyWith the moon oh so brightWe walked as if it was our lastI wished it never ended.

You walked me back to my apartment, at past 2am, ever so slowly. We stopped by my apartment’s doorstep, hugged each other tight like we didn’t want to let go, said goodbye, promised to keep in touch, and I watched you walk away, disappearing around the curb.

But then reality’s back, my time’s upI have to let you goI never had the chance, my loveBut now I let you knowThat there was loveBehind my simple smilesThere was loveBeneath your deep brown eyesThere was loveAlongside our last walk to rememberNow I’m back my love, I promise youThat I will never say goodbye.

You preserved the memories of that night in a song, and uploaded it on Youtube in October 2006. It was up there all those months, unbeknownst to me, as if the song was waiting its perfect time to reveal itself. I accidentally stumbled upon it on June 2007, and I cried like a baby as the lyrics of the song started to sink in.

So many days that I have thought and dreamt of you, my loveSo many restless nights that I’ve endured because of youSo now that I am here, I’ll never let one second pass me byWithout letting you know what happened last time we’re together.
That there was loveBehind my simple smilesThere was loveBeneath your deep brown eyesThere was loveAlongside our last walk to rememberNow I’m back my love, I promise youThat I will never say goodbye.

We’ve come a long way since that night. We’ve come a long way, period. 
I know I haven’t written you love letters in a long time. It’s been exactly a year since I updated this tumblr account. Do you still visit this page? I do. I like looking back at how in love we once were, and how our love has transformed into something less crazy, but more stable, and stronger, and more matured.
But I want you to know that I still fall in love with you everyday. I want you to know that I’m so proud of you. I want you to know how thankful I am to God for this life I now have with you.
You make me want to be a better person. You taught me how it’s like to not give up on love. 
So thank you. For that September night, 7 years ago. For this song. For all these years that you kept your promises and remained true in your love. For the many stories I can tell our daughters about. For not giving up on me. For making me feel loved every single day, no matter how ordinary, or how tough, a day can be. 
I love you, David.
I love being your wife.
I love living this life with you.
Happy September 13.

Remember that September night in 2006?

You got us tickets to a rock concert. We sat right up in the upper box, away from the crowd. We didn’t really enjoy the concert as much as we enjoyed each other’s company. So, halfway through the concert we thought we should go some place quieter and talk instead.

We took a cab. We heard the first Christmas carol of the year blasting from the cab’s radio. It was beginning to feel a lot like Christmas, alright.

And then we found ourselves at Starbucks, Pearl Drive, a few blocks away from my apartment.

You were leaving the next day. We didn’t have to say it out loud, but we both knew that we didn’t want the night to end. We were just friends back then, but I remember seeing you the way I never saw you before. 

When you’re friends with someone since you were in high school, and he happened to live halfway across the world, it’s easy to throw that person into the friend’s zone. But that night.. something was different. We felt older, and more matured, and more sure of what we wanted and who we were.

That night, everything had changed.

* * *

The other day I went past that Starbucks and memories came rushing back. You know how Starbucks has started rebranding and renovating their branches? This Starbucks in Pearl Drive has not been renovated yet. It’s still the same old coffee shop, with the same old wooden chairs we sat on back in 2006. For a moment there it felt like I went back through time, 7 years earlier, and once again I was amazed at how powerful and reckless young love can be.

I snapped a photo, and thought it would make you smile when I showed it to you. It inspired me to write you a love letter.

I walked away from Starbucks, our Starbucks, quietly singing our song as I went.

Time wasn’t on my side again 
And I have to say good bye to you
And all the things that we’ve been through
Coz I would have to go again
To find a way for time to pass me by
Even though we know it’s time for us to move on.

I was surprised I still knew every line by heart. I was surprised at how I still somewhat felt a tinge of pain in my heart just thinking about that night. 

We just found each other again, but we had to let go all at the same time. It was cruel, and bittersweet, and it was all for our good.

Time stood still the time I walked you home
It was just you and I alone beneath the deep blue sky
With the moon oh so bright
We walked as if it was our last
I wished it never ended.

You walked me back to my apartment, at past 2am, ever so slowly. We stopped by my apartment’s doorstep, hugged each other tight like we didn’t want to let go, said goodbye, promised to keep in touch, and I watched you walk away, disappearing around the curb.

But then reality’s back, my time’s up
I have to let you go
I never had the chance, my love
But now I let you know
That there was love
Behind my simple smiles
There was love
Beneath your deep brown eyes
There was love
Alongside our last walk to remember
Now I’m back my love, I promise you
That I will never say goodbye.

You preserved the memories of that night in a song, and uploaded it on Youtube in October 2006. It was up there all those months, unbeknownst to me, as if the song was waiting its perfect time to reveal itself. I accidentally stumbled upon it on June 2007, and I cried like a baby as the lyrics of the song started to sink in.

So many days
that I have thought and dreamt of you, my love
So many restless nights
that I’ve endured because of you
So now that I am here,
I’ll never let one second pass me by
Without letting you know
what happened last time we’re together.

That there was love
Behind my simple smiles
There was love
Beneath your deep brown eyes
There was love
Alongside our last walk to remember
Now I’m back my love, I promise you
That I will never say goodbye.

We’ve come a long way since that night. We’ve come a long way, period. 

I know I haven’t written you love letters in a long time. It’s been exactly a year since I updated this tumblr account. Do you still visit this page? I do. I like looking back at how in love we once were, and how our love has transformed into something less crazy, but more stable, and stronger, and more matured.

But I want you to know that I still fall in love with you everyday. I want you to know that I’m so proud of you. I want you to know how thankful I am to God for this life I now have with you.

You make me want to be a better person. You taught me how it’s like to not give up on love. 

So thank you. For that September night, 7 years ago. For this song. For all these years that you kept your promises and remained true in your love. For the many stories I can tell our daughters about. For not giving up on me. For making me feel loved every single day, no matter how ordinary, or how tough, a day can be. 

I love you, David.

I love being your wife.

I love living this life with you.

Happy September 13.

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It’s September 13. Remembering that September night in 2006 when this song was written. <3

You, three, keep me going. Thanks for being worth all the cramps, and muscle pains, and everything that comes with this whole nine months. <3

For all those attempts that didn&#8217;t work, and all those plans that didn&#8217;t push through, I just want to say.. thank you.
For keeping your promise.
For finding your way to me, just as you said you would. :)

For all those attempts that didn’t work, and all those plans that didn’t push through, I just want to say.. thank you.

For keeping your promise.

For finding your way to me, just as you said you would. :)

This is why I’m sure we’ll be okay

3 If you live according to my laws and obey my commands,I will send you rain at the right time, so that the land will produce crops and the trees will bear fruit. 5 Your crops will be so plentiful that you will still be harvesting grain when it is time to pick grapes, and you will still be picking grapes when it is time to plant grain. You will have all that you want to eat, and you can live in safety in your land.

 6 I will give you peace in your land, and you can sleep without being afraid of anyone. I will get rid of the dangerous animals in the land, and there will be no more war there.You will be victorious over your enemies; 8 five of you will be able to defeat a hundred, and a hundred will be able to defeat ten thousand.I will bless you and give you many children; I will keep my part of the covenant that I made with you. 10 Your harvests will be so plentiful that they will last for a year, and even then you will have to throw away what is left of the old harvest to make room for the new. 11 I will live among you in my sacred Tent, and I will never turn away from you. 12 I will be with you; I will be your God, and you will be my people. 13 I, the Lord your God, brought you out of Egypt so that you would no longer be slaves (to the Egyptians). I broke the power that held you down and I let you walk with your head held high.

~Leviticus 26:3-13

I feel like Barnabas

..and you are my Paul.

I remember waking up beside you the morning after our honeymoon. We were sleeping on a mattress on the floor of my old (bachelorette) room in Caloocan, because our apartment still needed some finishing touches. So there we were, in the middle of moving boxes, back to the real world after our fairy tale wedding, still trying to process what just happened there. :)

And I remember our devotion that morning, about Elijah, and how God affirmed to us that we’re up for something bigger than we can imaginesomething that’s too big for one person to do on his own that God had to give you a partner, and me, a leader. 

Six months after, God is affirming these things again to us.

Everything that God allowed to happen in our past, who we are, what we can do, where we are nowthe pieces are all slowly but surely falling into place! I don’t know exactly where God is taking us next, or what we’re up for in the years to come, but I find peace in knowing that God is silently at work, paving the way for our next great adventure. :)

So many things I love about these photographs, including how you fit right in! :)

Thanks for loving my family, babe. This family loves you back. You’re a real blessing to us.

Someday we’ll have our own little one. I can’t wait! :)

So we went to this beautiful wedding in Antipolo. I was wearing a pretty maxi dress, the weather was perfect, the stars were out, the food was good, the venue was beautiful, the couple’s love story was sooo kilig to the bones.. but all of these combined, YOU’re still the highlight of the night for me. :)

Thanks for being a super sweet, super charming date. <3

Husband dear,
I don&#8217;t know when I&#8217;ll ever stop swooning. Just the sight of you sweep me off my feet.
Love, your wifey

Husband dear,

I don’t know when I’ll ever stop swooning. Just the sight of you sweep me off my feet.

Love, your wifey

I know you&#8217;re just a jeepney ride away, in school, but I miss you anyway! It&#8217;s a beautiful Saturday afternoon, I&#8217;m at home where you left me, doing errands. Wish you&#8217;re here. I&#8217;m keeping the door open to let some sunshine in. 
See you later, love. :)

I know you’re just a jeepney ride away, in school, but I miss you anyway! It’s a beautiful Saturday afternoon, I’m at home where you left me, doing errands. Wish you’re here. I’m keeping the door open to let some sunshine in. 

See you later, love. :)

I pray for more days like this

I just realized I didn’t have any photos taken from yesterday, which happened to be one of the best days I’ve had with you. There was no special occasion, no frills, nothing extraordinary.

We were just at home the whole morning, not wanting to get out of bed. And then we went to the mall to get some errands done. You got fertilizers for the plants, cat food for Ashley, and yay, some make-up for the wifey! And then we went home and enjoyed the rest of the lazy day together. It’s quite a rare opportunity to be at home together while the sun is still up, and I loved every single moment of it I kept wishing that the day would last longer.

I read somewhere that while the 1st day of the year is the more celebrated one, the 2nd day of the year is more important—"the 1st day brings momentum, and the 2nd one brings reality."

If January 2 is our reality, then I don’t mind having reality checks all the time! 

I wish I took photos. But since I didn’t, I’m posting this here to preserve the memory.

Happy new year to us. ♥